I’m just catching my breath after some of the craziest weeks I’ve ever had.

My silence here was because of the madness that was Rihanna Live, the project I just delivered as part of my latest freelancing gig.

That was some of the most pressurised stuff I’ve ever experienced.  12 hour working days with a 2 hour commute either side were not uncommon, but I gotta say, I had a ball.  The efforts culminated on November 16th with a live event streamed live to the globe.  That day was such a rollercoaster ride, that when a key piece of the tech did exactly what it was supposed to do at exactly the time it was supposed to do it, there was thunderous applause, hugs, cheers and smiles from everyone in the team.  We did everything but bump chests (this is England, after all).

We couldn’t quite believe that all our hard work had paid off.

But it had, and in some style.

I’ve now finished that freelance gig, but I’m still catching my breath.  I know we didn’t stop global warming, stop a school from burning down or build a hospital in Africa, but it was intense all the same. So much so that it’s been pretty weird since 16/11, and I know the whole team have experienced something similar.

I even joked that “post 16/11 everyone’s looking for meaning in their lives”, and while it got a laugh from the team they also appreciated the truth in it.

After a huge peak, after a huge success, what comes next?

After an intense period of working closely with good people to achieve something bordering on impossible, what comes next?

When the meaning for your efforts reaches a conclusion, what replaces it?

For me personally, I’m not sure.  The CFS continues to bite and so I’m taking some time out to relax and figure things out.  Seems like the kind thing to do, and I get the feeling there’s a lot to learn.

But I do know a couple of things.

There’s a peculiar resonance to those connections you make when creating something impossible.  A resonance that makes them all the more intense and memorable.

It’s like your relationships and connections have their structure aligned by the frequency of your circumstances.  Connections made with people doing something average or ordinary will feel average or ordinary.  Connections made with people during something extraordinary will feel extraordinary.

So the first thing I know – today of all days – is that I’m grateful to my team.  Thanks guys.

The second thing I know is this.  I know that if I let myself absorb and integrate what I’ve done over the last few weeks, I’ll come out with something pretty amazing.

I’m going to let whatever happens next take shape without forcing it or needing it to take shape.  I’m not going to search for something meaningful to do next, I’m going to relax.  I’m going to let meaning come to me.