Just recently I told you how I turned down an offer from a leading digital agency based in Amsterdam. Well, the idea of going out there never strayed far from my thoughts, and if there’s one thing I’ve learned it’s that there’s always something interesting in those thoughts that just won’t budge. So I kept on talking with them, met with them a couple of times and I shot to the top of their most wanted list.
Then I thought, what the hell.
So all things being equal, this time next week I’ll be living and working in Amsterdam; for a couple of months to start with but if there’s another thing I’ve learned it’s that anything can happen.
I’m both scared *and* excited, which is a cracking combination and something I’m always advising people to seek out (unless the terror and exhilaration is because you’ve been asked to become the world’s first inside-out astronaut).
My hesitation around my health is still there and still valid, but if there’s yet another thing I’ve learned (is this “things I’ve learned” thing getting tired yet?) I can always make a decision that serves me well. If my CFS flares up I’ll deal with it, just like I have in the past. It’s not a question of finding the courage to do this, it’s simply a question of using and applying everything I’ve learned.
What I need is to live in colour, not in shades of grey or black and white as I have been in an effort to “contain” my health. That means adding extraordinary value to you, and it means freelancing in ways that work for me, not against me. It also means having more fun than a kid who owns every toy in the Whole Wide World because he’s just been elected Lord of Toys, is invited to every Birthday party for the rest of time and can have a bite of any cake he sees.
I have to make choices that reflect what matters to me. My health matters, but my life matters more.