Because I sure as hell do.
It’s tough, the last few weeks in particular. Dizziness, nausea, light-headedness, muscle ache, fatigue, heart palpitations, headache, screwed digestion. My eyeballs have been aching so much that the only thing I can do is close my eyes and hope it stops. Walking to the shops for groceries has left my legs like jelly and my body exhausted. There have been times when my brain has been so foggy I couldn’t pull a single, discreet thought from it.
And managing this is down to me. Nobody else can notice what’s happening and make decisions in an effort to ease things. That’s the thing with illness – at some point it comes down to just one person.
Luckily the symptoms are on the downward curve now, so I’m back up to speed and getting things done, which feels brilliant. Just in time to start another freelance contract as a Producer, which, while fun, takes a lot outa me.
I know. I’m whining. I really hate whining. I hear myself whine and I wanna give myself a slap and a good shake. I know I have things pretty damn good and that there are people who really are having an incredibly tough time out there. Like, impossibly tough.
But over the holidays I thought seriously about giving up. Stopping the blog. Stopping the writing. Stopping the coaching.
It’s tempting, it really is. Using the time to relax, to meditate, to sleep in, to do…what?
And that’s the thing. While it would make things easier in the short term, it would make things a lot duller too. Here’s what I told myself:
I am not the circumstances I find myself in.
The story I tell myself about what’s happening is up to me.
I can always have things be easier if I choose to.
I choose what matters over what’s easy.
I won’t give up on what matters.
So instead of giving up I’m working on something BIG. Something that has me so excited that I’d be jumping up and down if I thought I could do so without getting dizzy and crashing through my coffee table. It’s gonna take a little while to pull it together and get it out to you, so don’t hold your breath just yet, but it will be free and it will be brilliant (if I do say so myself).
The End of the Road for Truly Confident Living
What I’m working on will sound a bit of a shift around here. I’ll still be talking about confidence because I fiercely believe that’s the key to opening all the doors in your life, but what I’m working on will seriously upgrade the way I do things currently.
For that reason, the Truly Confident Living Course that’s been on sale here for the last 3 years will be coming down.
From Friday February 4th I’ll reduce the price of the course from $127 to just $64 – and at midnight EST on Friday February 11th, I take it down for good. No more. Gone. Forever. See ya.
That’s the full course that gives you everything you need to stop second-guessing, stop doubting and stop holding back. The full course that shows you how to be the boss of your fears, to value and trust yourself implicitly and how to make the bold choices that take you towards the stuff that really matters to you. There’s heaps of great stuff here that I’m really proud of – at a price that’s frankly stupid.
And after midnight EST on February 11th, it goes bye-bye.
If you don’t want to miss out, click here to get your copy.